Wow. Oh wow. How in awe I am of our Glorious God.
“Today, was an early morning. I left for work at 6:25 A.M. & my 32-minute car ride consisted of prayer.
Recently, I had been feeling overwhelmed with my current events and felt very disconnected from God. I have felt this way before so it was nothing new. But, I find myself time and time again unsure of how to handle it.
BUT, I’ve learned that the bible is a good place to start. So, for a while I continued reading my devotionals to just try and get some spiritual juice. Yet, I continuously found myself not fully engaged with the words I had before me.
So, my next step was prayer. I try to pray a few times a day. Yet, the past few days, I had been striving to make my prayer time more intimate
On this particular morning, I turned on my ‘Jesus Jams’ playlist and the first song to come on was ‘Here’s my Heart by Casting Crowns.’ I made this song the start of my prayer.
Thanked God for His goodness and endless love,
asked Him to teach me to love others the way He does,
to calm my anxieties and to help me enjoy this holiday season.
I surrendered everything to God,
confessed to him that I was completely and utterly lost.
I longed for Him to make a presence in my life today.
I thanked Him for being a gracious Heavenly Father and for always fighting battles that I cannot see.
After my prayer, a few other songs came on:
- ‘Give Me Faith’ by Elevation Worship
- ‘There is a Cloud’ by Elevation Worship
- ‘God of Miracles’ by Chris McClarney
Each of these songs lyrics managed to pull a tug on my heart. (I highly recommend a listen to each of these songs!)
When I reached work, I had a completely different feeling about the day. I was filled with joy and ready to see what God had planned for the day. (btw: I’m a nanny)
Every day, one of the kids I watch does a devotional on the bible app. I basically just read it to her and we talk about it at the end. Something you should know about her is that she has mad spiritual wisdom and is only 6!
Today, her devotional was over God’s unfailing love. She watched a short kids video over the devotional and let me tell you… it repeated.. “his faithful love endures forever” over.. and over.. and over… and over… and I’m not done yet.. and over.. and over again! I’ll be honest, it was a little annoying.
But, then I realized that we forgot to read the scripture part. It was Psalm 118, and it repeats “his faithful love endures forever” ..
1 Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good;
his love endures forever.
2 Let Israel say:
“His love endures forever.”
3 Let the house of Aaron say:
“His love endures forever.”
4 Let those who fear the Lord say:
“His love endures forever…. read on!”
Afterwards, my little gal asked me what endure means. So, I told her to ask Siri (her favorite thing to do). Siri answered, “Endure means to remain in existence; to last.” I watched her process that but then found that myself was processing it more than the 6 yr old beside me was.
Fast forward through our morning, I ended up at the library. I ended up doing my devotional on my phone. The devotional was written about someone else’s experience. Yet, I completely connected to it. It talked about being un-spirited for the holiday season and not having the ‘magic of Christmas’ feeling like the little ones do. It talked about how we need to choose joy over focusing on the things not going our way.
The author made a list of things she is grateful for. So, I did the same.
My list consists of: (in no specific order)
- My family
- To attend college
- My friends
- My heavenly father
- To nanny the best kids on the planet
Now that I look back at my list, I can see how each individual thing branches off into other small things, experiences, and situations that I am beyond grateful for.
Ultimately, I am SO thankful for our Heavenly father! He is the reason I am able to experience the things I do! He has always provided and always been there for me. For Him I will rejoice!!
Further into my devotional I read a line that stated, “his faithful love endures forever” and it stated it again. And again, and again. Then, I clicked over and read my scripture, guess.. what.. it.. was.. Psalms 118. (I definitely was in tears at this point, I’m an emotional person okay?!) And you bet, I read that thing one more time over again. This time with tears in my eyes and a heart wide open.
Enduring. Lasting. Never ending. Sustain. Remain. Abide.
My God is so crazy! He pursues me when I am so far gone, loves me when I forget how to love, and is SO faithful when I am faithless. My faith today has grown and the ground I stand on will NOT be shaken. For my Lord is with me. He fights battles for me every day. Even when I feel so distant, He pulls me closer and closer until I am back in his arms.”
Wow. What a morning to start out with.
Hey there friend! How has life been treating you? What has God been teaching you this week? Comment down below so I know what to be praying for for you!!
xoxo, Mo Tarp